You've captured something I think about often. I'm also aware of how well the body can work to protect. When I find myself slipping into depression , I can feel the fight in my body. The urge to move , to take a long walk, to feel my body working is so strong. I believe it is because the body knows what to do when my spirit can't.
Oh yes, this book; it’s been on my book wish list for a couple of years now, I need to get it! Or see if the audible version is available.
Yes I’ve been aware of the “Anniversary memories” reality for years now. For me it’s often unconscious. For instance my mom ditched the role of mother when I was three months old and my sisters basically fostered me until I was 3 1/2 years old...at which time my mom came to reclaim me...which I felt was wrong on many levels because I thought my sister I was living with was my mom, and this lady...I didn’t know WHO she was. I believe all these traumatic events happened usually in the summertime, so in certain months in the summer I have intense abandonment issues bubble up, and insecurities. Further, when my daughter was the age that I was at those times... I had some serious anxiety, because it was like my unconscious was observing my own child and remembering how it was when I was her age at those times.
Something I’ve been thinking about writing about... but it’s just so hard to dive in and really do the expository narrative thing about these deep psychological PTSD matters.
And about that - what do you think about exposing personal information for public consumption? I have long felt I wanted to write my story...
BUT I live in a very small town, and I don’t I don’t necessarily relish the idea of splaying out my deep, intimate, though interesting, personal memories for PTO members, bank tellers, and baristas to know all about. Plus I’m thinking of becoming a real estate agent and it might be bad for my public persona.
And if I wanted to pay, where's the button telling me how to do that and the cost?
I had assumed my antics over the years had already qualified me for a character in a story, but I’ll subscribe anyway. 😉
Wow. Just wow. Now I have something else to worry about. 😉
You've captured something I think about often. I'm also aware of how well the body can work to protect. When I find myself slipping into depression , I can feel the fight in my body. The urge to move , to take a long walk, to feel my body working is so strong. I believe it is because the body knows what to do when my spirit can't.
Oh yes, this book; it’s been on my book wish list for a couple of years now, I need to get it! Or see if the audible version is available.
Yes I’ve been aware of the “Anniversary memories” reality for years now. For me it’s often unconscious. For instance my mom ditched the role of mother when I was three months old and my sisters basically fostered me until I was 3 1/2 years old...at which time my mom came to reclaim me...which I felt was wrong on many levels because I thought my sister I was living with was my mom, and this lady...I didn’t know WHO she was. I believe all these traumatic events happened usually in the summertime, so in certain months in the summer I have intense abandonment issues bubble up, and insecurities. Further, when my daughter was the age that I was at those times... I had some serious anxiety, because it was like my unconscious was observing my own child and remembering how it was when I was her age at those times.
Something I’ve been thinking about writing about... but it’s just so hard to dive in and really do the expository narrative thing about these deep psychological PTSD matters.
And about that - what do you think about exposing personal information for public consumption? I have long felt I wanted to write my story...
BUT I live in a very small town, and I don’t I don’t necessarily relish the idea of splaying out my deep, intimate, though interesting, personal memories for PTO members, bank tellers, and baristas to know all about. Plus I’m thinking of becoming a real estate agent and it might be bad for my public persona.
Thoughts!? 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻
Thanks for the reminder. I hope your back pain eases quickly. I’m in month four now and struggling to be patient.