On feeling like a loser and the perils of comparison
perception is nine tenths of reality
It's definitely a game that you have to play conciously.
You score 100% with me. I worried all thru this diatribe but then smiled at the end. You got this!
I read to the end and like Betsy was a bit concerned until the end. I realize this is not the point but I think I am a paid subscriber but I always see the request and don't know under what email I subscribed. Can you tell?
Thank you for this honesty. It’s helpful for me to read this reflection from someone I see as successful. It helps me remember that if you feel this way and it’s obviously not true, then my thoughts are also not true.
Oh how I relate. None of it is deserved or earned. I can tell you that getting that email that said hey, you have 1000 free subs felt more weird than anything. (It hasn’t translated into payed subs for instance. It hasn’t changed any of the challenges in my life.) but I do apologize if noting it caused distress because of course I wouldn’t want that. And I get it completely.
You have one more subscriber now 😊 I can identify with a LOT of this - I came over to Substack a few months ago and alongside loving it I am getting a teensy bit addicted to all the stats... Yesterday I wrote a post I was pretty pleased with, and promptly lost 3 subscribers... Hehe. A message from the Universe to remind me to refocus on the important stuff - enjoying the writing, enjoying the making of offerings, enjoying the connections that come along. And also, it's good to remember I'm not alone! Good to meet you & I look forward to reading more 🙏🏻PS I love Rohr so much...
Thanks Robyn for sharing your thoughts!
I have been writing my newsletter for two and a half years now, and I still have less than 1k subscribers. One way I think about "success" as a newsletter writer: I'm living more in line with my values because taking the time to share my thoughts with others in writing on a regular basis means I remember more easily what matters to me.
It feels as though you have succeeded in a similar way, reminding yourself to take a deep breath and enjoy what you enjoy: writing (for its own sake).
Wishing you continued success on your terms!
Here in solidarity (and not in competition),
I try remembering that everyone feels like this, even those that seems like they have everything figured out. Deep inside, we all feel like frauds. Everyone feels (at least at some point) like children that just found out they are adults now, and have to suddenly figure out how to work and do taxes.